note to self


the promised updates are in form of pages , so if you want to read the boring details of my food and running, they are filed to your right under pages, called food stories. I decided not to clutter the main page with my food phobias and addictions. I wonder why I am not ready to blend both parts of my meditation…read..i need sleep..more later


Fair warning


Thought I should warn you. I have been on a break and am now back. New and Improved, new and slightly demented. Focused on so any things that some say that I am bound to fail. I need to do so many things to just survive and to keep my brain running smoothly.

So here’s the deal. In the next 6 weeks, I finish my thesis draft. Quite doable, as only superficial changes remain, the main work is done. In the next 6 weeks, I am also going to revamp my eating habits and in the next 16 months I will train for a half marathon. Its quite a lot, you say? Well all of the above should be mutuallt exclusive and I am determined to think only of these three things with equal priorities. I have woken up and am not smelling any roses. The roses need watering to bloom. I told ya I was demented.

Why? Because there has been enough dilly dallying and enough playing around and enough waiting for things to happen. Now things need to happen FAST. The only way is to keep myself busy and just DO IT. The capitals are to convince myself taht I can do it. So whats the plan?

I am an expert plan maker, in school I used to make these beautiful plans, study for 3 hours, take 30 minutes break. The result? 30 minutes studying and about 4 hours of reading something..ahem..more fun!! But things have changed, I generally stick to my plans. And I have decided that stick to my plans I will and I will finish what I have begun, namely all three above.

so for the grace of god go I

 1. Finish my draft: I will make the changes I am asked to make every week and do something extra as well. I will also finish the creation of the online survey as well as do whatever is asked of me..repeat afetr me : grad students have no ego, grad students are vermin crawling on the ground, grad students have achieved zen because they can take it all, chamipions accept pain, changes to thesises and never complain. Repeat as many times as neccesary.

2. Revamp eating habits: I have gotten a bit complacent, eating a little more here and a lot more there and definately unjustly justifying consumption of cheesecakes etc. So i have adopted the “NO CHOICE” plan. This is essentially to plan everything I will eat the next day and stick to it, down to the last breath and in the face of cheesecake and chinese.  Can I do it? I knows not, I think I can, but time will tell. I promise to report to my faithful readers as to whether I stuck to it or not. I will add another page to my blog and report there..please be encouraging..pretty please?

3. Train for a half- marathon : This is probably the easiest thing for me. I am already spinning 3 times a week, all I need is some serious running the otehr three days. Friday is my day of rest. I claim it to be mine 😀 . So I will follow the runner’s world training program and be ready to run a half marathon by July 2007 and a full one by october 2007.  Just a matter of maths and sticking to it. If you want weekly reports you just have to ask!

Why am I putting this on my blog? This is kind of like throing my hat over the proverbial fence. I feel more accountable and I also report to all you guys out there which makes it less easy to make excuses. So will be reporting food everyday and will also be reporting runs weekly and other sundry stuff as life continues. I iwll add another page for the food and runs. All this begins from monday the 26 of march. I am super exited 😀 and I am super scared as well. If I dont do it, I will also have to pay for it by losing face and self esteem. SO heres to a new and improved Directions!

narcissist..uhh me?

As already said before, I like tags, so even when people dont tag me I just do them, it is good for two reasons: keeps this updated and two, keeps me from doing any real work! SO chandni ji thanks again for another tag,

1. Were you named after anyone? Nope, cosidering that my name means direction and I am pretty rudderless, I think it quite an ironical name.

2. Do you wish on stars? umm..didnt know was supposed to, I do like looking at them for hours though, does that help?

3. When did you last cry? Err…its a secret and you are not authorised to know, actually last week, but that was an isolated incident

4. Do you like your handwriting? Me loves me handwriting, me narcissist 😀.

5. What is your favourite meat? Chicken all the way

6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?mmm…not really, but my ipod has all those midaged hindi know..tu cheej badi hai mast mast type of stuff, it works for a workout sometimes 😀

7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? maybe, depends on which of my personalities was at the fore, see I told you am directionless

8. Are you a daredevil? Cautious, sigh..i know..sigh

9. How do you release anger? Kickboxing, running, spinning

10. Where is your second home? home is where I am, out of sight outta mind baby.

11. Do you trust others easily? Naivety extreme..sigh

12. What was your favourite toy as a child? I remeber a doll that my mom says I carried around all the time, no direct memory though..sorry.

13. What class in school/college do you think is totally useless? Geography, yeah lack of diirection

14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? smirks…what do you think? 

16. What do you look for in a guy/girl? attraction..a certain sizzle, more of a jock than me and more of a nerd too..any questions as to why I am single?

17. Would you bungee jump? Definately

18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? never and I also tend to put them on the wrong side of each other, as in left in front of right foot and right on the left..i know..

19. What’s your favourite ice cream? hmm…anything with chocolate and vanilla 

20. What are your favourite colours? RED, blue, black.

21. What are your least favourite things? TV, malicious gossip, arcane texts

22. How many people do you have a crush on right now? hmm…lets just say ..none

23. Who do you miss most right now? Mom…mommy I want my mommy 

24. What are you listening to right now? The radio…Delila show on Sunny 102.5..its mix of old and new senti stuff

25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Red

26. What is the weather like right now? Coolish and nice and sunny during the day 

27. Last person you talked to on the phone? mm…probably my friend, who wanted to know if I would be home so that he could drop by.

28. The “first” thing you notice about the opposite sex? confidence, how they carry themselves

29. Do you like the person who sent you this? No one a narcissist all by myself

30. How are you today? Down and out, but climbing out of it slowly

31. Favourite non alcoholic drink? coffee

32. Favourite alcoholic drink? sorry to disappoint but I dont do alcohol

33. Natural hair colour? black

34. Eye colour? Black

35. Wear contacts? I LOST them

36. Siblings? none..ahh spolt narcissist brat

37. Favourite month? whenever school is out

38. Favourite food? everything..but chocolate is important for health

39. Favourite day of the year? agian, whenever there is an unexpected chutti

40. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? not really

41. Scary movies or happy endings? scary movies with happy endingd

42. Summer or winter? both

43. Holi or Diwali? both :D, one is fun and the other is tradition.

44. Do you like your name? Looovvve it..

45. What book/magazine are you reading? just finished some chicklit by a guy called “Catsitters”

46. What’s on your mouse pad? some crubs of dunno what

47. What did you watch on TV last night? I told ya I dont like TV

48. Favourite Smell? wet earth, certain pefumes

49. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone? No.

50. Most tiresome thing you have experienced/done? religious events and long colloquims

Am not tagging anyone coz afterall noone else is as narcissistic or fully faltu

theraputic baking…gone wrong?

ok, so I am stressed out. So what do I do, Im stressed out, I have no work and it is a weekend. I do the following

puffsbanana bread

1. read 3 novels : (Im with cupid, Dance upon the air, Gaurds Guards)

2. workout: spinning, ran 5 miles

3. cook : I baked chicken and cheese puffs, a banana bread, butterchicken, eggplant stew

4. Catch up with blogland

and what has gone wrong..the cooking, people the cooking, running 5 miles and making banana bread..d-oh!! means I also ate the banana bread and the chicken puffs. The chicken puffs I think are impossible to part with (sorry guys). The banana bread is bread so it will possibly last untill the middle of the week. ohh the pictures up there are of my cooking..good cooking and good pictures!

But why does food call my name? if there is one single cookie in the house, locked away in a drawer with thousand things over it, I swear it calls my name…says dishhhhaaa, Im here come and eat me. So thats what I do. Reminds you of the “Real princess” story doesnt it? If you dont remember the story, then shame on you, and please apply for details. So Im the real porkess. I enjoy me food laddies.

note to self: theraputic baking is not theraputic if you have to workout like a maniac the rest of the week to make up for it. and it is not a part of healthy living

note 2 to self: stop thinking about the banana bread

note 3 to self: banana bread is very yummy

note 4: stooopppppp

another gorgeous ending with odgen nash jee:

Except From The Clean Plater

Bring salad or sausage or scrapple,
A berry or even a beet.
Bring an oyster, an egg, or an apple,
As long as it’s something to eat.
If it’s food,
It’s food;
Never mind what kind of food.
When I ponder my mind
I consistently find
It is glued
On food.

happy monday people..another week good